It was a gloomy day, once again. The sky was filled with clouds but I forced myself to get out of bed. Days were unclear now that work was complied with personal life, so closely, that it was hard to separate the two. Some days I tend to give myself a self-care day too long and other days, I feel like checking all the things on the list. Staying home felt like a space I so desirely hoped to escape. My room is burdened with my thoughts, day and night. I should perhaps go for a walk outside to give my room some alone time. Overwhelming thoughts about not doing enough occupies me daily. One thing a day gives me the perfect illusion of being productive.
As the tea boils over the pot, I turn off the stove. I wish it was as easy as pouring hot tea into a cup as it was pouring my thoughts to others. I sip the tea as I choose something to watch on the television. Binge-watching has become my best friend, someone I could have the deep conversations I craved with friends. I login into zoom and get ready for class. The only human contact was through technology lately, how strange was that? It was good knowing people were doing well. As class was over, I lay on my bed. Staring at the wall about thinking about the things that needed to get done. Inside my mind, I am finishing a maze, to answer the very question: Whether today will finally be the day I do it or shall I just leave it for tomorrow?
Hi Akampreet,
I think we all can relate and are right there with you with the blurred lines of work, school and everything in between due to our current state of living and the pandemic still very much in full swing. Thank you for your brutal honesty and vulnerability you so eloquently displayed in this post.
Thank you for your comment and I am excited to write in the safe space Peer Leaders offers.
Hi Akampreet,
Thank you for sharing something so personal and honest! I loved and felt every single word. The last question is the most difficult to answer, but the easiest to ask.
Keep writing !
Thank you for reading and I look forward to writing more!
Hi Akampreet. You’re storytelling is one that reaches without jolting and to your words, a silent “yes” is said. As a tea drinker, I use tea as a practice of self-care and a part of getting things done. Thanks for sharing!