What I want to do with my life is a very simple, and yet, quite loaded question. The honest truth is that I do not know what I want to do with it. I think in the end, I just want to be happy. And leading my life with the prospect of simply being happy is a really confusing thing. Like, right now, I am a Political Science major. And I really do enjoy the topics I am learning about. But what is to come after this? I am not sure. I know a lot of my peers are thinking about law school, but is that something that would make me happy? No. I don’t want to be a lawyer. And I don’t want to be a politician. So what else is there for me to do? I don’t know. I think it sucks being nineteen and still so uncertain of your own future. Instead of answers for things like what I want to do, I just have a bunch of blanks. And thats not particularly what people want to hear. I get it too. I mean it’s a basic question, now that I am in my second year of college I should make a decision about what I want to do so I can work towards it. Yet, I can’t.
I’ve always changed up my ideas for what I wanted to do. At first, it was archeology, then it was a veterinarian, then it was a doctor, a philanthropist (how would I even pull that off?), a criminal psychologist, a psychologist, a sociologist, a lawyer, a professor… the list goes on and on. Recently, the unrealistic dream is curating a museum. But I suppose that’s not an answer for what I want to do in the future but rather something I would like to do within the span of my life. It’s a foolish dream, it’s unrealistic, but the thought of it makes me happy. So i guess it’s alright to have it in the back of my mind.
All of this convoluted nonsense aside, the point is, I just want to be happy. Which is why, I suppose, my list changes so much. It evolves alongside me. I think freedom is something I want to do with the rest of my life. The freedom to do what makes me happy. I think a lot of Latine’s get to this point in their life and feel that they have to have everything set. I see a lot of people my age with that mentality. It’s a good mentality. I wish I had it. But for me I just want to do things that make me happy. I want to talk about the things I love, I don’t want to settle on a career that will end in me being unsatisfied. I want to genuinely enjoy my life. I want to be open about all sorts of expressions of myself. To love who I love, dress how I dress, talk how I talk. I want to be strive to be that version of myself. I’m not sure if that is really answering the question, but it’s definitely the best answer I’ve got.
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We should do things that make us happy. We live in such a capitalistic world that we often forget.