A question I never answer

Not seriously anyway 

I didn’t think I would ever have to answer it anyway

My mind too foggy 

My mind too dark 

Still waiting for that train that passes by 

Something would change 

Maybe I would work up the nerve 

Maybe the train would stop for me 

Then I turned 16

Then I turned 18

Then I turned 21

Pending graduation 

Pending career 

Overdue expectations

All of a sudden 

Staying alive wasn’t enough 

They found themselves wanting more

What Now? 

Time doesn’t wait 

Soon it’ll pass me by 

In the blink of an eye 

Pressure looms in my brain 

It’s time for a graduation 

Everyone wants a celebration 

Still I don’t know 

Still taking it one day at a time 

Still I struggle with this uncertain future

But at night I dream 

That I am happy 

That I am content 

Maybe just maybe 

It can be enough for me